Goodbye 2015, Hello 2016
Hii :)
So there is no only one day left of 2015 so I wanted to talk about 2015 as a whole and my hopes and aspirations for the upcoming year.
2015 has been a great year for me as I feel like a lot has changed for the better. I think that I have overall changed a lot as a person and realised what's right and what is wrong for me. Personality wise I feel as if I have matured quite a lot I doubt anyone would agree but I've grown up a lot and began to be a little more logical and sensible which I guess you could say I lacked before. I was thinking the other night that last June '2014' I was in Year 8 which is well and truly manic and thinking back to those days which feel like ages ago not a year and half blows my mind but that's where I began to think about my big change. Comparing my personality and thoughts from then to now i have definitely developed for the better.
This year especially the second half I have most definitely started to care less. It's always been a horrible habit of mine ever since I've been at this new school so for around 4 years now. I guess going into a new, much larger, all girls atmosphere creates that anxiety but it always played on my mind 24/7. For the majority of the year between last September and July was when it peaked the most I cared way to much about every little detail and stupid things that shouldn't bother or distress a person in their day to day lives but hey I've learnt to push all that aside and focus on the more important things not the stupid nitty gritty rubbish.
I also feel as if I've gained so much more confidence, so much more I can't even stress it, for the majority of my life I've been a extremely shy and quiet person but this year, again mostly in the second half, has really brought me out of my shell. Not just in school but in public and with meeting new people. I have made so many new friends this year which I am so grateful for because having lots of friends has always made me happy knowing I always have someone to rely and who can help me, it also helps take away a lot of nerves and unwanted stressing. It sounds as if that's why I like having friends but honestly I don't always realise this but I can go days without properly laughing or genuinely smiling and all my new friends can make me do that over the littlest of things which I am so grateful for.
Yes, theres been bad things which have caused me to be so annoyed I've literally wanted to punch a wall, but I have just pushed them aside. That is something else I've learned two develop this year not caring about unnecessary rubbish. (could've sworn then woopsss) I couldn't give to (ducks) about what people think of me now and I've learnt to just laugh about it.
So to summarise this years been great I've been on the greatest road trip of my life and had the most amazing three weeks living the absolute Californian dream which is something I had dreamt about for years. I think it's crazy how such an impossible dream in 10 year old Mollys life came true and I can't even fathom how surreal it feels to even look back on. It was hilarious, scary and quite honestly the best three weeks ever and we met some amazing people along the way too.
I can't thank my parents enough, I vividly remember the day they told me we were going and I didn't even realise at that moment how exactly I would become so emotionally attached to some of the cities especially San Fran. Yes, people will question it and put you down, I know I spent 4 days there in my life but it only takes that long to realise it is amazing and the place I want to be, I couldn't find a fault and 2015 has made me realise how much I take these things for granted.
So here's to 2016, let's hope it is just amazing and I continue to grow and shape into my future self one day at a time, jeez that's so corny but its' the truth aha.
There is so many more important things to life than pettiness and I just have to forget it to ensure that I am happy. :) I feel as if that was almost a rant but I needed to get it out almost aha.
Hope you have a good night and for the final time in 2015, I'll see you next year, not funny at all.
Molly x
This year especially the second half I have most definitely started to care less. It's always been a horrible habit of mine ever since I've been at this new school so for around 4 years now. I guess going into a new, much larger, all girls atmosphere creates that anxiety but it always played on my mind 24/7. For the majority of the year between last September and July was when it peaked the most I cared way to much about every little detail and stupid things that shouldn't bother or distress a person in their day to day lives but hey I've learnt to push all that aside and focus on the more important things not the stupid nitty gritty rubbish.
I also feel as if I've gained so much more confidence, so much more I can't even stress it, for the majority of my life I've been a extremely shy and quiet person but this year, again mostly in the second half, has really brought me out of my shell. Not just in school but in public and with meeting new people. I have made so many new friends this year which I am so grateful for because having lots of friends has always made me happy knowing I always have someone to rely and who can help me, it also helps take away a lot of nerves and unwanted stressing. It sounds as if that's why I like having friends but honestly I don't always realise this but I can go days without properly laughing or genuinely smiling and all my new friends can make me do that over the littlest of things which I am so grateful for.
Yes, theres been bad things which have caused me to be so annoyed I've literally wanted to punch a wall, but I have just pushed them aside. That is something else I've learned two develop this year not caring about unnecessary rubbish. (could've sworn then woopsss) I couldn't give to (ducks) about what people think of me now and I've learnt to just laugh about it.
So to summarise this years been great I've been on the greatest road trip of my life and had the most amazing three weeks living the absolute Californian dream which is something I had dreamt about for years. I think it's crazy how such an impossible dream in 10 year old Mollys life came true and I can't even fathom how surreal it feels to even look back on. It was hilarious, scary and quite honestly the best three weeks ever and we met some amazing people along the way too.
I can't thank my parents enough, I vividly remember the day they told me we were going and I didn't even realise at that moment how exactly I would become so emotionally attached to some of the cities especially San Fran. Yes, people will question it and put you down, I know I spent 4 days there in my life but it only takes that long to realise it is amazing and the place I want to be, I couldn't find a fault and 2015 has made me realise how much I take these things for granted.
So here's to 2016, let's hope it is just amazing and I continue to grow and shape into my future self one day at a time, jeez that's so corny but its' the truth aha.
There is so many more important things to life than pettiness and I just have to forget it to ensure that I am happy. :) I feel as if that was almost a rant but I needed to get it out almost aha.
Hope you have a good night and for the final time in 2015, I'll see you next year, not funny at all.
Molly x
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